Monday, 12 May 2008

I thought I was past that!

I try not to blog too much about me and my insignificant little issues too often, but forgive me while I think out loud here...

I know most of you are going to laugh at me for this, but I really thought I was past making those big life choices. At 23! I know. I am laughing too.



But seriously, I chose what to study, I made the leap and got married, I moved to Jhb for the job, and thought that I had everything sorted. But then, life intervenes, and everything gets turned on its head.



Hubby resigned this morning. We thought it through and have decided that this is the best way forward, but it's still hectic. See, my parents, being the uber-cool and ultra-generous (although sometimes anal) people that they are, recognised that he's never had the opportunity to study. So they said they would give us part of our inheritance now so that he can better himself and move up in the world. Their logic is that they'd like to see us put the money to good use and not wait until they die (horrid thought), when we may not need the money anyway.



I think that's really awesome of them. On the other hand, it's a BIG step for hubby to give up his role of provider (which he takes very seriously) and depend on my folks. It's also a scary thing for me to suddenly be the main breadwinner in the family. Plus, I have to admit that I miss studying and will be a bit jealous. *Sigh*



It also makes life very difficult to predict - what if we decide to have kids in the next two years? Unlikely, but hey, anything's possible. Or so they say. It also means that I need to stay put in my job to keep the money coming in. Hmmm.



I guess my fear is just about being trapped - not being able to make the decisions that will affect my life. Then again, we've survived a lot together - an eating disorder, depression, me studying, him losing his job, moving house three times, moving to a new province, and countless other mini-crises. We'll be fine. I know that. I just wish I could FEEL that.



Sorry, I promise to be more upbeat in my next post. Here's a funny for those of you that were expecting a smile.

9 comments:

sweets said...

i think it's great, nobody get's a second chance like this!! support him and tell him not to think twice, go study!!

Bridget said...

Your parents are topo cool!

Good luck guys.

Tamara said...

Sweets: that's the conclusion we reached too. So it's off to UJ this weekend for the open day.

Bridget: You're back! That just made my day.

Kirst said...

I think it's awesome. But I know the feeling. My husband's brother has just got married to his long-time girlfriend. He has also given her the chance to give up her job and study Occupational Therapy , which he always wanted to do.

I wish I too could go back and do Varsity again. But then, I'm in a good job and it would mean some sacrifices all round, and I do enjoy what I do...

Good luck to you guys. I think your parents have an awesome idea and I hope I am in a position to do the same for my kids one day.

Oh - and thanks for the link to my blog.

Kirsten said...

ooops...
Previous post was from me... used the wrong url

Tamara said...

Kirsten... thanks for stopping by. Are you kidding - I love your blog. I read it compulsively and show it to friends and family!

AlasMyDear said...

no, you so don't have to apologize for being serious! life isn't just about fun&games&dance, is it?

that is a major decision you made. and you are so very lucky to have such lovely and understanding (and unconventional!) parents. � haven't known you for very long, but somehow i feel you guys are going to make GOOD on this chance. all my very, very best!

Tamara said...

Alas: thanks for your sweet words :) Means a lot.

phillygirl said...

sheesh, that is at once both an amazing opportunity for your hubby and a scary scary step! Good luck with it :)